GrandPa - You Are Still Close In My Heart

Dearest Grandpa - My beloved one,
Forgive me for not being there - for the comfort and ease of mom.

I guess you know what has happened to her,
I guess you understand the reason for our not being there.

Many things have happened; My Life & Mom's

I try my best to make things right, but each time it turns out wrong.
I know this is destined - whatever that is happening, whatever that is it.
With your determination running deep in me, I never will say 'NO' to destiny.

I know things happen for a reason; you leaving us, mom's diagnosed.
I have been tested, so many times in life and I would not allow any of these tests to ever bring me down again.

I have your strong determination, I have your strong-will and I guess this is why I felt so connected, so connected that whenever I am down, the 1st person I'd talk to is you, that when i secretly cry alone in those silent nights, I looked up into the sky and there I see you looking over me. And I felt the relieve soon after I have spoken to you, I would almost immediately feel your strength and you kept me going strong again.

Grandpa, I have become stronger, and please continue to be the stars overlooking at me :)

I love you and you will 4ever be close in my heart.

Irregardless of WHO YOU ARE

Not again.

So you think you are really the DOWAGER?
Everyone has to follow your way, everyone has to abide to your ruling?

If you do not even know how to make peace with your immediate family members,
If you do not have the basic respect for your LOVED ones, what else can you expect from them?

Asking any 'good friend' of yours to stay over at brother's house (without first seeking permission);

Asking any relatives to stay and sleep in your daughter's room (knowing that it has affected your daughter's privacy);

You still think 'It's TOTALLY ALRIGHT - because you are THE DOWAGER??

Look, if you don't start to realise whatever you 'think' was right, is actually WRONG;

I would help to put it clear across.

Unless you STILL insist that 'THIS IS MY (YOUR) HOUSE - YOURS and ONLY YOURS', then I would not persist on my stand.

But as long as I am staying here and I have made it clear that I have shifted back and you have understood that my staying is PERMANENT (till further arrangements);
give me the basic respect; with this you will be earning the respect from me.

As much as I want to be tolerant, as much as I want to be 'Ms.NICE to all';
I will not withstand whatever unreasonable actions from anyone.

You will be right if you are right,
You will be wrong, if you are wrong,
Irregardless of WHO YOU ARE.