GrandPa - You Are Still Close In My Heart

Dearest Grandpa - My beloved one,
Forgive me for not being there - for the comfort and ease of mom.

I guess you know what has happened to her,
I guess you understand the reason for our not being there.

Many things have happened; My Life & Mom's

I try my best to make things right, but each time it turns out wrong.
I know this is destined - whatever that is happening, whatever that is it.
With your determination running deep in me, I never will say 'NO' to destiny.

I know things happen for a reason; you leaving us, mom's diagnosed.
I have been tested, so many times in life and I would not allow any of these tests to ever bring me down again.

I have your strong determination, I have your strong-will and I guess this is why I felt so connected, so connected that whenever I am down, the 1st person I'd talk to is you, that when i secretly cry alone in those silent nights, I looked up into the sky and there I see you looking over me. And I felt the relieve soon after I have spoken to you, I would almost immediately feel your strength and you kept me going strong again.

Grandpa, I have become stronger, and please continue to be the stars overlooking at me :)

I love you and you will 4ever be close in my heart.